Mother’s Day, now that I’m the only one

For me, I don’t think I miss my mother any more on holidays than I do when I can’t sleep & I reach to call her because I think she’s working the night shift and fiddling with her phone, or when I’m hurting & I just want to lay in bed next to her and watch a funny movie, or when I drive my truck (which was hers) and I remember her singing off key while she drove wildly.

I can tell you I am certainly not over my mother’s death, even now years later. But really, how long does it take to forget your mother? I hope never.

But I am content with the loss of her, I am grateful to have had the 19 amazing years with her I had & grateful still to have today even without her because I am with myself, my daughter, my partner, & everyone who makes up my family & community.

While my mother was alive she taught me how to survive, as a mother should. With her death my mother taught me to live well and live now.

For those of you who’ve lost your mother or any loved one: I know it hurts, believe me I do, but the pain lessens over memories and the joy increases. I wish you the best in your process, and wish you all a happy and joyful Mother’s Day.

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8 thoughts on “Mother’s Day, now that I’m the only one

  1. What a beautiful tribute to your mother in so many ways. I’m sorry she’s no longer with you. I can’t begin to imagine how that must feel…though I know that day is coming when I’ll know exactly how you feel.

    I have a feeling your mother is alive through you – her daughter.

    • I’m sorry for your loss. I certainly can relate to “too soon,” but we show up when he have to, & it makes us all the more resilient & strong. Probably helping taking care of my family has been a major facilitator to healing from my grief. I wish you all the best, thanks for commenting.

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